Ode to life
I’m beyond worn out of this life.
It’s been going on for far too long.
I just want a peaceful end now. All over.
I’m tired mentally & physically. I’ve had enough.
Do you remember all those times I cried, so distraught?
Do you remember all those times I’ve tried, to say goodbye?
You may have forgotten, moved on, separated yourself.
But for me, the pain has not ceased to exist, it has only grown strength….
And now I feel that all I have left is pain,
And it controls me.
And I don’t want to carry on this way.
I don’t know about you, but hoping for better days is not enough to keep me here.
Sweet Dreams, Love and things.
3:13 pm • 16 February 2014
I’m so unbelievably stressed out & my life is a mess…
My friends cat Lulu was put to sleep today and it was so sad. Last night we stayed up with the cat all night and she was so ill through kidney failure that she hadn’t eaten for 5 days and was so weak that she couldn’t walk or even stand up at the end. It was so sad. And I think this has really affected me…. but unlike a lot if people (maybe you can relate?) I don’t show my stress or feelings at the time of feeling them. I could have just lost a job or something and still be smiling away, so as to keep up everyone else’s feelings. But it’s the few days after the bad event or incident that I begin to feel all the stress and upset and them I feel it BAD. On top of my friends beautiful cat dying today, it reminded me of all the feelings of when my beautiful cat died aged 7, 3 years ago from heart failure. Oh my god that was such a terrible day and I ended up in hospital shortly after with all the stress & upset. Anyway our toilet has also been blocked for the whole day and we’ve had to use a bucket for a toilet…. How sick. And yes I do feel sick. It’s demoralising. I’m just so stressed out about every thing and I don’t know how much more I can take before I snap! ****so_hurt****
Pics are of Lulu an hour before she was put to sleep. She may not of even be able to see here….she may have been going blind by this point. So sad.
6:04 am • 8 February 2014 • 1 note
EHLERS DANLOS ZEBRA
BOTTOM: NOT BUILT FOR THE CHRONICALLY ILL
4:52 am • 7 January 2014 • 280 notes
Two years ago on Sunday, I won two gold medals in the British Taekwondo Championships. One month later, I became ill. Exactly one year ago today (September 10th 2012) I woke up unable to walk. I couldn’t stand, i couldn’t do anything. I was screaming in pain and i just remember how desperate me and my family felt. My body is now so scarred from my mental health plummeting after my ability to walk left me. I suffer from a rare genetic condition known as Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS). I have secondary illnesses known as Reflex Neurovascular Dystrophy and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. I want to spread awareness of these conditions. I was 14 years old when I was told that I had EDS; by this point it had already attacked my entire body, causing permanent damage to my hand and taking away my ability to walk. I was scared, i remember not having a diagnosis, not understanding why I could no longer walk. I had only just turned 14 when I took my last steps. I have just turned 15 and I am trying so hard to stick with it. Life is difficult, but throw in something that stops you doing the things you love, and it can be hell. Please, reblog this. I want to spread awareness of this illness that cripples and disables people worldwide.
4:52 am • 7 January 2014 • 716 notes